The Slow Merging of Higher & Lower Selves in the Physical Body & Incarnate Self ~ Dec. 8, 2016

By Denise Le Fay, 12/07/2016

There’s been periods throughout 2016 when I knew my physical body and DNA were rather dramatically evolving again. My first human thought usually is if any of these weird changes I’m feeling are age related, and no doubt some of them are, however most are added changes due to it being the third 9 energy year (2016) within the Ascension Process and Galactic Alignment.

I’ve been very aware of some of these changes because the way my physical body responds to certain things, usually emotional things, is wildly different from anything I’ve experienced in my life. The first time I felt this was early in my physical, biological Ascension Process around 2000. I was driving and my Mom said something funny and I laughed out loud. Nothing unusual about that except that I was instantly shocked by the dramatically increased amount of energy in me and my body when I laughed. To me it felt and sounded HUGE and I was surprised, confused and slightly embarrassed by such amplified force blasting out of me through my laughter. I’d never felt that before because it had never existed before and it was a really startling change.

After some time I realized that what I’d felt, and from my perspective heard, was a tremendous increase in the amount of energy I had within my physical body, and when I laughed it felt and sounded massive and unusually loud and powerful. It took some getting used to this sudden change in how much “voltage” I suddenly had running through me and my physical body back in the early days of the Ascension Process. Of course this Process has never stopped or ended since then, but continued and increased in the amount of Light Energy I (and you reading this) was consistently taking on and embodying as I energetically climbed these many evolutionary Ascension Stair-steps over the years and decades.

Decades ago my Mom told me the story about when I was a baby all she had to do was lay a blanket on the floor, put me in the middle of it, and I would not leave the blanket. After she told me this, I told her why I didn’t leave the blanket and it was because I was afraid to and would not crawl out into the “world” because I knew from infancy where I was and how unsafe life on 3D Earth really was. That’s a difficult burden to carry from infancy and not have it crush or break you in any way(s). The only other person I’ve read talk about being consciously aware of where they had incarnated is Inelia Benz, and she said she cried uncontrollably for days before their family doctor had to sedate her. My personality—plus my conscious memories of many Team Dark “monster” beings—has been to go into stealth mode so the “monsters” of this world and beyond hopefully wouldn’t notice or sense me down here, quietly immobile on my blankie! Scream and cry and make a lot of noise and commotion? Not me, I’d do everything I could to become invisible and literally fly under Team Dark’s (TD) radar as much as I could get away with for as long as I could. That is why I never left the blanket as an infant. Different story the older I got however because, like it or not, I was/am a ‘Volunteer’ and I had/have a job to do while incarnate here during this very important Ascension Process and evolutionary shift out from under those very “monsters”.

Another important life awareness and early memory I’ve had since age two or three years, was a time when my Mom and Dad were driving the three of us somewhere. Keep in mind that this was back in the early 1950s and baby carriers and car seats etc. didn’t exits. Because it evidently was a longer than usual drive we were taking, Mom had laid my crib mattress in the back seat of the car, covered it in blankets and surrounded it with protective pillow barricades for me. It was my own little travel “nest” in the back seat of their car.

At some point during this drive I felt a never before experienced emotion and physical body sensation that was powerful enough to cause a two-year-old to remember and recognize it for life. What I suddenly felt was an all-encompassing sense of safety, security, empowerment, peace, physical comfort, emotional comfort, spiritual comfort and HighHeart memory of and direct sensations of with Higher nonphysical HOME. It was blissful in those rare moments, those highly unusual feelings of being utterly safe, protected, nurtured, loved, LOVED, comfortable and consciously aware that I was a multidimensional being that existed simultaneously in higher and lower frequency dimensions and “realities” while being very young Denise incarnate in physicality, again.

I’m stressing how real this was on both emotional and physical levels because I, as Denise, had never felt safe, secure or comforted being reincarnate on physical 3D Earth now! The profound extremes between feeling like constant prey in the Dark physical Land of Evil Monsters, and, feeling that Divine Source had my back was a terrible, lovely, disturbing contrast, especially for a very young child. But, such are the lives, experiences and awareness of most Forerunners/Starseeds/Wayshowers/Higher Frequency Beings of Light in what’s been incomprehensibly negative and Dark for so very long.

I’ve mentioned many times how very difficult life has been for me since early 2014, and 2015 wasn’t any improvement either but more about dealing with all the changes caused by my Mom’s sudden 2014 stroke and subsequent worsening dementia. Things, situations, places, people and ways of life have been winding up, winding down, imploding, exploding, falling away, disappearing and dying and all of it has been part of this Ascension Process. A few days ago I was reviewing the years from 2014 to now, the end of 2016, and it’s honestly been hard to grasp in its entirety. 2014 and 2015 were wild years of sudden and dramatic change and I know this isn’t remotely over yet. December 2015, the first energy “Wave” of that year began for me very differently from all previous Ascension Process years and decades. Last December 19, 2015 I suddenly felt like I had a seven foot-long spear going through my physical body at and through the upper chest area at the HighHeart. Needless to say it was amazingly painful as my HighHeart and surrounding area went through greater evolutionary changes.

I’ve often been able to clairvoyantly See the different evolutionary higher Light energies coming into this dimension and my physical body as lines of Light. Back in 1999 and the early 2000s, I could See these different lines of Light coming into my body and/or my head in very specific angles and degrees, somewhat like laser lines of evolutionary Light, that needed to enter the body and/or specific organs and chakra areas etc. in highly specific geometric angles. Some of these lines of Light would connect with another line of Light, usually at endocrine glands but not always, again in highly specific angles and directions etc. that were intentional, not random or accidental. I’m not very familiar with Chinese acupuncture and meridian lines in the human body etc., but what I’ve clairvoyantly Seen over the decades of these Ascension Process lines of Light entering my body and head have reminded me of a type of Divine geometric Light“acupuncture” energies let’s call it, that further activates certain DNA to evolve, change and expand at specific times and so on. Said another way, these very high frequency evolutionary lines of Light enter us, our bodies and consciousness, our body “grid”, our consciousness “grid”, our emotional HighHeart “grid” so to speak, at specific angles and directions that are sixth dimensional (6D) and geometric.

So if you too have clairvoyantly Seen a line or lines of Light energies coming into your body and head at clearly defined angles and intersecting with other lines of Light, then you know that there’s a higher blueprint being followed and overlaid on and within us and we call it compressed evolution. If you can See it, it’s rather stunning in its perfection and clarity despite how often it makes us feel! Lead to Gold…

Since November 2016 I’ve had this same sensation of a seven foot-long spear (line of Light) going through my HighHeart, upper chest area of my physical body. My beloved cat partner entering his death process and suddenly dying last month didn’t make that any easier to endure and things have felt like unseen bombs have continuously gone off left and right, red and blue, light and dark ever since. Put quiet simply, it’s been really horrible in multiple ways for a long time now. Like I needed to even say that to the people reading this!

Having said all that I need to quickly add that off and on since December 2015, I’ve very much felt this growing sensation in me and my physical body that clearly lets me know that tremendous evolutionary progress is being made in between the explosions and pains of our current lives. Like my experience as a two-year-old in my little “nest” in the backseat of my parents car, I have been clearly feeling that old familiar sensation of HOME now in me, in my physical body, right here, right now. This is, from my current perspective and level of awareness, the ongoing merging of my Higher Self with my Lower Self in Denise’s physical body and incarnational timeline during this Ascension Process. Hot damn kids, we’re doing it!

So far to me this ongoing merging process feels like increasingly being at ease, at peace, empowered beyond belief, safe, comfortable, in love/LOVE with self and Self and Source because they are all One within me and my physical and energetic bodies and evolving consciousness. So too for you reading this but it probably feels a bit differently to you and that’s normal and to be expected.

But, if you’re also feeling a strong and constant growing inner sensation of being comfortable in your skin; of growing personal Sovereignty; of increasingly being out of range of TD and their influences; of not being able to relate to the old world or have any interest in it whatsoever other than to put it out of its misery once and for all, then you’re feeling the merging of your Higher & Lower Selves taking place IN you and your body and HighHeart. And yes it’s blissful, timeless, and yes it is crazy painful sometimes but who cares because it’s happening, for real! Higher HOME is here now—in the early stages—in many of us and it’s why there are those moments of timeless bliss and hanging with Source because Source and Self are merging and becoming One within each of us. Just imagine what reality will be like with hundreds of thousands or millions of Source-as-Self connected Sovereign human Light beings living and creating on 5D Earth.

All this sounds so wonderful, and it is, and yet this cusp-like, transitional between two worlds and levels of being, consciousness and reality really gets to be way too much sometimes. Off and on all year I’ve had more periods where I was so not of this world feeling and functioning that it was all I could do to go out into it and forage for groceries and toilet paper and have to actually physically speak to another human being! Off and on all year I’ve had times where I couldn’t string a sentence together well enough to communicate with a physical human. Typing is easier thank gawd but this is no way to have to exist, this half-in and half-out sort of business. This I AM Divine Source yet I still have to interact with repulsive unaware humans existing and functioning in old lower TD’s frequency range and are totally mind controlled and not to be trusted for a second. How long can this insanity and tension-filled gaping gap continue? Not long because I don’t want to do it for starters. Another big shift is close now thankfully because it’s impossible to be in bliss while driving your car or interacting with a cashier somewhere just like it’s nearly impossible to have to interact with unaware humans that honestly believe they’ve got it all figured out, are so clever and powerful and think you’re easy prey. Give me strength to be Neutral and unaffected by the silly shit in all its diverse forms…

There’s a lot going on now as we all knew there would be at the end of this third 9 energy year of completions. I’ve had to spend a lot of time almost every day laying down doing nothing and being very still while this merging continues. It will get easier but until it does, rest often, sleep whenever you need to no matter what time of day or night it is, eat what and when your body needs the fuel, be alone while this massive spiritual, energetic and physical evolution unfolds in you and your body, always move among the human zombies with Higher Awareness, and radiate your Light like crazy around the humans waking up and feeling their HighHearts birthing within them now. 2017 will be tons more of this for many more people so be ready for it and much more as best as you can.

Denise

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Equal Arm Cross of Ascension ~ July 18, 2016

Equal Arm Cross of Ascension

I’m not and never have been a religious person, but the Equal Arm Cross has been emblazoned in my Higher Awareness and HighHeart for years now because it’s what some have lived for many years via the evolutionary Ascension Process. We’ve been, and continue to, integrate and resolve polarity/duality in ourselves individually no matter which sex body we incarnated into during this time of planetary and species-wide evolution induced Ascension.

Male bodies and consciousness have needed to integrate female/feminine energies within themselves; female bodies and consciousness have needed to integrate male/masculine energies within themselves. We’ve needed to alchemically live through the Process of Sacred Unity, of Sacred Marriage of the male/masculine with the female/feminine within ourselves individually so that regardless of which sex body one incarnated into, it and Self are evolving into an integrated, complete whole Sovereign unit that’s able to exist within a fifth dimensional frequency range physically.

As if the horizontal line energies and Process alone wasn’t a big and difficult enough spiritual, energetic and conscious task, Forerunners have also been working on the vertical line energies represented in my drawing above. They’ve been and continue to integrate, merge, unite and embody their Higher Self with their Lower Self in their current physical bodies. While the unaware mindlessly trace a cross in the air with their fingers over their body, Forerunners are actually living it, actually doing it energetically from the inside out and the outside in within themselves body and soul. One is an old well-known religious gesture; the other is a small group of Forerunners actually living, embodying, becoming and being the unification of the Higher with the Lower Self because the feminine/female has been integrated and unified with the male/masculine and vice versa. One is merely external and a mostly mindless habit; the other is internal, acute, alchemical, vibrational and energetic and when individually accomplished automatically creates and manifests something very NEW—a Christed/Crystal human in the physical on Earth.

Because humanity has been intentionally led astray from higher truths and awareness for so very long, it’s going to take repeated attempts to fully understand that to achieve evolution requires personal inner work and inner alchemical and energetic changes which cause consciousness and eventually external reality changes to match and reflect it. Inner must happen first, not outer. Do the Great Work inside yourself first because that’s what causes everything, and eventually everyone else, to be able to do the same themselves. Nothing else matters, which I know is also another intentional lie to further keep humans from working on themselves.

Don’t be surprised when, after years or decades of doing the Great Inner Work on yourself already, you suddenly find yourself back in there and on top of some old issue(s) from long ago, working it/them some more. This is normal and we typically have to chip away at many layers of some of our old issues, our stuff, our inner junk etc., but because the evolutionary (revolutionary) push is full-on now in 2016, we’re able to move through whatever duality layers remain very quickly. That is if you don’t let yourself get sidetracked or intentionally derailed. Stay the course, finish this phase of your Inner Great Works as the insanity, chaos and general BS and madness increases and the deluded lower consciousness people continue doing what they do. It’s going to get worse for a while because it’s getting better now, much better actually even though the external doesn’t reflect that yet in as large and sweeping ways as the Forerunners might prefer. It’s coming however and it’s coming because YOU continue to do the Great Inner Work on/in yourself.

Think of the above Equal Arm Cross and what that really means for you as a Forerunner now actually living and embodying what it represents within yourself, your physical and energetic bodies and all else. This is no small feat, no small event, no small or puny evolutionary change. To those who have been actually doing it and continue doing it, my deepest gratitude, respect and heartfelt thanks.

Denise

July 18, 2016

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Mid-2016 Overview ~ June 15, 2016

Many thanks to my friend, A. for sending this article byDenise LeFay that describes what many of us have been feeling over the past few years. For me, I have been wondering, “Wait a minute, if I AM a Light worker…how come I’m not in a great mood? I AM not in a terrible mood, but aren’t I supposed to BE happier, now that I know my truth?”?

So…please read on and learn more about why we feel the way we do, the possible reasons for our feelings, and…

InJoy!

For some 2016 has been far more difficult and challenging than what 2014 and 2015 combined were, and that’s saying something! Since the completion of 2012, the energy Stair-steps have been something else have they not? And they’ve often not been anything like what we Forerunners thought or expected them to be either. The NEW very much is new to each of us because we’ve never done this before, anywhere, and that’s just perfect and wonderful even when it doesn’t feel that way sometimes. I think many of us have been and still are so deep within this phase of the Ascension Embodiment Process that we can’t as yet quite grasp just how much we’ve actually changed (evolved).

Because 2016 has been unusually difficult for me personally, I’ve spent some time and focus trying to figure out why. I could look at this from a strictly astrological viewpoint and understand the transits interacting with my natal planets and such, but this old beloved tool is taking place at higher, more complex Ascension Process levels too. I’ll always enjoy and appreciate astrological insights, but even that tool must be considered in NEW ways because we are evolving, and quickly.

I had to go deeper to find the Ascension Embodiment Process answers I was desirous of to help me better understand why I’ve had such a hard time of it this year. Even how I have accessed higher information (Light), Higher Awareness in this lifetime has drastically changed since 2012 because I am evolving beyond those old, well-familiar lower frequency tools too, all Forerunners are, hence why some of us are seemingly, I repeat seemingly floundering this year. We are however not floundering at all but individually transitioning into greater amounts of the NEW internally and externally. Having said all that, feeling increasingly depressed and isolated was not at all what I expected would happen to me in 2016, and I needed to understand why I’ve felt like this much of this year.

Let’s recap these three Stair-step Energy Waves to see what we can See and Know.

First of these Stair-steps or Energy Waves began around December 19, 2015 and was like getting hit by a HighHeart Mack truck; wonderful, traumatic and unexpected.

Second of these Stair-steps began around March 2016 and caused many Forerunners to go into deeper feelings of being more alone and isolated.

Third of the 2016 Energy Waves Stair-steps will begin in September and no doubt be even more intense and potent throughout the last three months of 2016 to help prepare us for the start of even higher energies coming in throughout the three Light Waves of 2017.

Honestly look back over what all has happened to you, your life and consciousness just since December 2015. Like me, you’ll realize that you have changed considerably since then, not that we’re anywhere done with this yet however. Nonetheless, look at how you’ve changed in that short period and how it has made you feel. Like me, have you felt increasingly alone and isolated from the world and humanity? Have you felt more empowered despite feeling depressed at times? Despite feeling utterly disgusted with many humans lately and knowing with Higher Awareness the many reasons why? Do you feel yourself increasingly becoming more ‘Sovereign’ with each Stair-step you traverse in 2016? Do you understand that (and this one took me some time to figure out) the feelings of growing isolation and being alone is actually you/me/we becoming increasingly Sovereign within ourselves individually?

It’s taken me a while to put two and two together because I’m still very much living this phase of the Embodiment Process and not done with it yet. ‘Is it soup yet?’ ‘Are we there yet?’ ‘Are we Home yet?’ Not quite yet but almost.

Becoming depressed was the absolute last thing I’d ever have thought I’d feel at this point in the Ascension Process and it confused me greatly. I haven’t worked this long and this hard to just reach “depression”!!! OMG, you’ve got to be kidding me! With some effort I finally began to understand that what was being interpreted by myself as “depression” and “aloneness” was in fact the early stages of Embodiment. It seemed a contradiction at first but the more I looked at the situation, the better I came to understand it was just a change in perspective (on everything) that was making me temporarily feel alone and depressed at times. It was NEW in the greatest, largest sense.

Since birth in this incarnation I’ve felt alone because I have been alone on this physical planet and dimension and isolated from the normal higher frequencies of Home other than what I brought in with me at birth. I was a Volunteer Forerunner spy in a foreign land and deep undercover all my life so feeling alone and isolated isn’t new to me or any other Volunteer/Starseed/Forerunner/Pathpaver etc. Neither is feeling depressed from time to time, but during 2016, this has felt very different. It felt intensely personal, it was all me, all mine and I didn’t get it for almost half of this year. I now do which means it’s going to be vastly easier not to mention an even faster Process than it already is.

Those of us who Volunteered to incarnate in 3D to help with the Ascension Process in the physical typically came in with some shock and trauma because of how negative, Dark and evil the entire planet was. We adapted and adjusted as much as we could to survive being in physical 3D as a human while carrying more Light in us than would ever be allowed by Team Dark (TD). We acclimated as best we could and did what we came here to do. Now however this has all reversed (at the Expiration Date of December 2012) and we’ve been struggling—much like we did early on in these incarnations—to cast-off those old lower frequency, negative and Dark energies, habits, traits, consciousness and so on we accumulated while down here as we “ascend” both ourselves while in physical bodies and the entire planet and much more with us. I would think a bought or two of depression and feeling alone would be expected at some points within all this.

Seriously, after this lifetime of living among the “walking dead” zombie parasites called mass humanity and normal reality on 3D Earth, many of us have been Embodying our Higher Source Self into these physical bodies and incarnate Selves which could not be any more opposite from the “walking dead” parasites and parasitic life and reality! This profoundly extreme opposite feels, at this point at least, like we’re alone in this Embodiment Process down here in physicality. You and I know we’re not and that Home and Family has always had our backs and yet, we’ve HAD to do this on our own down here, otherwise what’s been the point to all this?

I’m stressing this point because after leaving our natural state of and higher levels of individual Sovereignty, to be reconnecting with IT again down here in the physical finally feels unusual at best and depressing at worst at this point. We’ll get there however.

At one level it feels strange to us to individually be increasingly connecting with and Embodying our Higher Source Self. This naturally causes one to become increasingly ‘sovereign’ meaning absolutely no more parasitic actions, people, life, reality, actions etc. etc. We have IT all within us individually which means to us as we are now, we feel more “alone”, more “isolated” as anyone would after a lifetime of living on a completely parasitic world reality. We’re not feeding from the trough of others in any way or ways but have evolved to the level where we’re finally becoming Home again meaning we’re Self as Source Sovereign and need nothing else. To the old parts of us this mega shift feels like we’re more and more alone, even more different than we were before, and more isolated in some ways because of it. This will change with time and with us Embodying even more of our Greater Selves but for now it’s all rather weird and wonderful, and sometimes depressing because it’s hard to fit so much Divine Source into such little packages as these incarnate bodies and Selves.

Why So Many “Walking Dead” In My Life Now?

Another thing that’s repeatedly been in my life (and “new” old house) all of 2016 are numerous completely unaware and/or just starting to “wake up” people, all of them male.

Some of you may remember an article I wrote in January 2016 (if memory serves) where I talked about what I’d experienced via the First Stair-step Energy Wave around December 19, 2015. I had suddenly fallen in love and became LOVE for brief periods so IT wouldn’t destroy me, my body, psyche or central nervous system etc. It was all rather weird and unusual for me to suddenly be seeing males (again) as things I wanted to hang out with and more. Euw, what, no no no, I closed that sexual door at age 39 when called back to the Cosmic Ascension Monastery again. It was a far too easy portal for Team Dark to get at me through so I deliberately closed it then for that reason.

So when the first of these particular Waves began last December, no one was more surprised than me to be eyeballin’ certain younger-than-me males. Again, just because something is interpreted at first as such and such by us does not mean that’s what it really is. Don’t do anything sudden or stupid but keep going, pay attention and do your best to figure it out from a higher level of awareness.

Let me lay this out for you this way because I think it’ll be easier for us all.

First HighHeart Wave of this period began December 19, 2015 and for me had to do with falling in love with males while simultaneously being LOVE myself for short periods.

Second HighHeart Wave Stair-step of March and April 2016 (this has been almost constant for me however and not only these two months) has for me been about repeatedly on a one-on-one basis dealing with different males that are totally unaware patriarchal “walking dead” parasitic zombies, and slowly “awakening” males with still very heavy overlays of old lower patriarchal negative everything. You wouldn’t believe some of the negativity I’ve experienced this year from these lower consciousness, female disrespecting, parasitic patriarchal males. (A couple of other males have been honest and equal with me which was beyond wonderful.) But mostly frustrating, heartbreaking, downright dangerous at times, absolutely unbelievable at other times, and all one big old lower world patriarchal “hot mess”.

The third Stair-step Wave of September and the rest of the year will give me and everyone else the time and focus to find solutions/integration/resolution etc. beyond the two highly dualized one-two punches of #1 and #2 Waves. Wave #3 is when and where I can, you can, we all can work on and reach Triality, Neutrality, Unity with the particular issues—whatever they’ve been for each of us in 2016—before the year completes and we evolve into much higher energy Waves of 2017. This is how this Duality business has seemed to work post 2012; 1 and 2 yearly Waves or Stair-steps are typically fairly extreme opposites with #3 Wave being the point where we’re able to See, Know, integrate, resolve or Neutralize the wild extremes into One within ourselves.

But for now while in Wave #2, I’m still dealing with low consciousness males (all hot for Trump and eager to tell me all about it) and doing my best to discern when to open my mouth and when not to. Some of these people (Portal People) are just so easy for TD and/or negative energies etc. to work through to try to get at you/me/us so be aware and wise and in your HighHeart.

The other day I had an electrician here doing some work on the house and first he tried to puff himself up to intimidate me and when that and other tactics didn’t work, TD stepped in, took over and tried. That didn’t work either but good gawd, what a thing to experience only a foot away! This is always interesting to See and experience firsthand but enough already, so get this one figured out Denise before the fence guy and other handymen comes back in a few days. I can’t wait to get to September 2016 and work on these two old patriarchal extremes and move on.

Denise

June 14, 2016

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