By Gerald Sinclair,
In this day and age, we forget how important it is to really get to know one another. We fall in love far too quickly, and we end up broken before things have even truly begun.
It is much easier to find a ‘lover’ than it is to find someone to spend your life with. Giving your all to someone who hasn’t even taken the time to get to know you is a sentence to failure from the start. While physical intimacy is great, true intimacy comes from sharing not just your body but also your mind and soul. I don’t want a lover that doesn’t know my favorite color. I want a lover that has seen me at my most vulnerable and been by my side when the rest of the world was tearing me apart.
I don’t want to go home the next day feeling as though I’ve lost a part of myself. I want to wake up replenished and aware of all that is to come. I want someone that can build me up in the ways I cannot build myself up, someone that will watch me slip and help me find a better place to plant my feet. I want what most people refuse to admit exists and so it’s not going to be easy.
Settling for something that doesn’t make my soul happy is not an option. We all deserve the love that we give and I have so much to offer. I want to look at the person I love and in his or her eyes, see all of my secrets. I want to be with someone I can trust with everything in this life, someone who will never run from the affection that I am offering.
If I cannot allow my vulnerable side to run free and still feel comfortable, I do not want to be with you. I want you to look at the mess that I am and love me for who I am on the inside. Sure, it might be hard at times, and we will have our fights but I want them all. I want the person who knows me best to be there by my side through the good times and the bad times.
Love is not something that comes before friendship and that is something a lot of people need to be reminded of. If you can’t call yourselves friends why are you calling yourselves lovers? If you cannot be friends you are not capable of being true lovers, there is no getting around it.
Once you’ve found someone who is your best friend and your love, who you can tell anything to you gain something most will never have. You find an eternal flame that cannot be put out. You grow together and become part of one another. I want a love that allows me to try any and everything all the while having a hand to hold through it all. I don’t want temporary, I want infinite.
As cliche and cheesy as it sounds, I want to be able to dance naked in the kitchen with someone who won’t think I’m crazy. Someone who will look at me while I’m doing the most obnoxious things like I put the stars in the sky. I want real love and no average ‘lover’ will do. I need someone in my life that can keep up in all the ways that those who are stuck obsessing over their bodies can offer. I need someone who knows me like no one else ever could.
When you’re tired of the things that those who only wish to use you ‘offer’ you too will see exactly what I mean. While they’re fun for a while, they are not what any of us truly need. Love is far too empty when we do not allow our soul to partake.
Source: https://awarenessact.com
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Rose Rambles... 
You had a lover who was your best friend,but you were unfaithful in spades. That lover protected you and you trashed him for a series of 10 second spine tingles from people who lied to you and used you. You will never have a true friend or know true love. Very sad.
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I AGREE WITH YOUR ASSESSMENT OF WHAT WOMEN DO TO MEN THAT DO AS THEY ON A MOMENT OF EMOTIONAL NEED DESIRES, BUT ONCE A MAN COMES THEIR WAY THEY TEND TO DEMAND HONESTY, FROM THAT MAN, AND WHEN THAT MAN, TELLES THEM IN HONESTY WHAT THEY HAVE IN THEIR MIND, THE WOMAN WILL EITHER GET ANGREE, FOR HIS HONESTY.
AND GIVEN A CHANCE TO A WOMAN, THEY WILL IMEDIATLY TRY TO TAKE CONTROL OF THE RELATIONSHIP.
NOW TRYING TO BE AS HONEST AS I CAN BE IN TODAYS TIMELINE IT WOULD BE ALMOST IMPOSIBLE TO FIND A GOOD WOMAN, THAT IS HAPPY TO BE A WOMAN NOT A GODESS, AND TO FIND A GOOD MAN WILL BE NO EASY TASK EITHER, BECAUSE, LESBIANISM, AND INDEPENDANCE FORCE THOSE THAT ONCE TRYED TO BE CURTIOUS MEN WITH AN UNGRATFULL DESDAIN FOR OPENING A DOOR FOR THEM TO GO IN, TELLING THE MAN THEY COULD DO IT THEMSELVES. IT WAS WOMEN THAT LED MEN TO BECOME HOMOSEXUALS AND GIRLISHMEN, THAT HAD TO LEARN TO WALK ON EGGSHELLS WITH CARE, TEACHING THEM TO GO DODGE ON AND INVITATION TO GET LUNCH OR DINNER, TO KNOW THEM.
A WOMAN WILL NEVER FIND A MAN FOR LIFETIME FOR AS LONG AS THEY GIVE IN TO GOING TO BED WITH THAT MAN THAT KEEPS ON TRYING SO HARD TO BE A LOVER FOR THEM.
IT IS MY PERSONAL OPPINION THAT IF A MAN CARES FOR A WOMAN ENOUGH TO CONSIDER HER A LIFETIME PARTNER, THE LAST THING HE WOULD TRY TO DO IS TAKE HER TO BED BEFORE THERE IS COMPLETE COMMITMENT OF THE PART OF THAT MAN TO WAIT UNTIL MARRIAGE BEFORE GOD IS CONSUMED.
BECAUSE WOMEN TEND TO BE DECIVED BY THE WORDS OF GOOD BLOBBER MOUTH MEN WHOSE TALENT IS TO GET WHAT THEY WANT WITHOUT COMMITMENT OF ANYKIND.
AND FOR WOMEN TO TAKE THE TIME TO LEARN IF THE MAN IS A RESPOSIBLE MAN OR NOT BY THE WAY, HE PREPARES HIMSELF TO BUILD THE NEST AND HAVE IT READY FOR HER TO FILL IT WITH WHATEVER HER
NEEDS SHE THINKS WILL NEED INTHAT HOME.
BECAUSE THAT WILL BE THE NEST WHERE HER AND HIS SEEDS WILL NURISHED AND GROW UP.
OUR EDUCATION SYSTEM SCREW UP THE MINDS OF THE LAST 4 OR 5 GENERATIONS TO THE POINT THAT THEY, WERE THOUGHT TO HATE THEIR OWN SEXUALITY.
THE BIBLE TELLS IT LIKE IT IS “” IT WOULD BE BETTER FOR A MAN TO STAY SINGLE THAN TO BE MARRIED TO A
CONTENTIOUS FEMALE.
BECAUSE A WOMAN DOES UNDERSTAND THAT THEIR WORDS CAN HURT A MAN A LOT MORE THAN IF SHE WOULD KNOCK HIM OUT WITH HER FISTS, OR ANY KITCHEN ITEM THEY COULD SURPRISE THE MAN WITH.
RESPECT FOR ONE ANOTHER IS THE MOST IMPORTANT CHARACTER TRADE, BOTH WOULD HAVE TO PRACTICE MIX WITH CONVERSATION, TO RESOLVE, NON-ISSUS, AND NEVER GOING TO BED WITHOUT RESOLVING THEIR DIFERENCESS.
THERE IS NOTHING WORST FOR A MAN TO HAVE TO EXPERIENCE A RELATIONSHIP IN WHICH THE WOMAN WILL REFUSE TO TALK TO A MAN THAT SHE HAS CHOSEN TO BE HER LIFETIME FRIEND, SOMETIMES FOR DAYS AT THE TIME, OR DENYING THE HUSBAND SEXUAL SATISFACTION AS A WAY OF PUNISHMENT FOR SOMETHING HE DOES NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE PROBLEM IS.
WOMEN HAVE TO LEARN THAT MEN THAT ARE MARRIED DID SO BECAUSE THEY DID NOT WANTED TO BE GOING TO PROSTITUTES TO SATISY HIS SEXUAL NEEDS AND MEN’S SEXUAL NEEDS ARE STRONGER THAN THOSE OF THE FEMALE, THERE ARE MANY WAYS TO SATISFY A MANS SEXUAL NEEDS WITHOUT THE NEED TO
PRO-CREATE FAMILY AS LONG AS BOTH OF THEM SO CHOSE.
THE KEY TO FIND THAT MAN THE POSTER WOULD LIKE TO HAVE IS TIME TO GET TO KNOW THAT MAN, GOD NEVER PUSHES ANYBODY TO LOVE HIM HE LETS YOU BE THE ONE TO SEARCH FIRST TO GET TO KNOW HIM IN ORDER FOR YOU TO LEARN TO LOVE HIM.
THE REASON WHY GOD LOVES WITH OUT CONDITIONS IS BECAUSE HE CREATED YOU AND HE KNEW YOU BEFORE HE EVEN CREATED YOU BEEN ALPHA AND OMEGA MEANS THE IS THE PAST AND FUTURE, HE KNOWS WHAT YOU WILL BE LIKE BEFORE YOU GET TO KNOW HIM AND AFTER YOU GET TO KNOW HIM OR REJECTS HIM.
I AM SPEAKING FROM EXPERIENCE. I ASK GOD FOR A WOMAN THAT WOULD BE THE ONE THAT WOULD BE THE ONE THAT WOULD INTRODUCE ME TO HIM KNOWING THAT WOMEN TEND TO BE MORE RELIGIOUS THAN MAN IS.
OR I SHOULD SAY THE WAY WOMEN WERE THEY NO LONGER ARE THE WAY THEY WERE 60 YEARS AGO AND BEFORE.
AND DESCRIBE THAT WOMAN THAT HE WOULD USE, AS THE TOOL TO INTRODUCE ME TO HIM, PHYSICALY, TALENT WISE INCLUDING HER CHARACTER, IN DETAIL.
SO WHEN 7 YEARS WENT BY AND GOD HAD NOT PRESENTED ME TO THAT WOMAN I WOULD ASK HOW MUCH LONGER LORD AND A SMALL VOICE INSIDE OF ME WOULD TELL ME IN A LITTLE WHILE,
WHAT GOD WAS DOING THROUGH THAT TIME OF 7 YEARS HE WAS DEVELOPING THE DESIRES OF MY HEART ON THAT INVISIBLE WOMAN. AND BUILDING A STRONGER CHARACTER FOR MY WAY OF LIFE BY THE DICIPLINE HE BUILD IN MY LIFE BY WAY OF THE USMC, UNITED STATES MARINE CORPS. BEEN THE OLDEST OF 7 BROTHERS I LEARN HOW TO APPLY DICIPLINE TO MY YOUNGER BROTHERS BUT I NEVER DID HAVE THE NEED TO BE DICIPLINE BY MY PARENTS, MY BROTHERS RESPECTED ME MORE THAN THEY RESPECTED MY PARENTS. DICIPLINE BRINGS RESPECT AND LOVE FROM THOSE YOU DICIPLINE.
POOR SEMPLE IS JUST PAY ATTENTION TO A DICIPLINE DOG HE WILL LOVE YOU MORE AND RESPECT YOU MORE THAN AN UNDICIPLINE DOG.
GOD HAD ALREADY PLACED AN UNDERSTANDING SINCE I WAS A CHILD THAT THING WERE GOING TO CHANGE MY LIFE, IN THE NORTH PART OF THE UNITED STATES, BUT GOD ALSO KNEW I HATED THE NORTH PART OF THE UNITED STATES BECAUSE OF COLD TEMPERATURES, I LIVED IN CHICAGO FOR 6 MONTHS AND I L;EARN TO HATE THE COLD WEATHER AND THE BIG CITY.
SO I HAD NO IDEA HOW GOD WAS GOING TO CHANGE MY LIFE IN THE NORTH PART OF THE UNITED STATES.
WHEN I CAME OUT OF MY CONTRACT WITH USMC. ONE OF MY COUSINS THAT WAS GOING TO THE UNIVERSITY OF WASHINGTON, CAME DOWN TO TEXAS TO VISIT AND I WAS JUST FRESH OUT OF THE MILITARY SERVICE, HE INVITED ME TO GO TO SEATTLE WITH HIM AND RELUCTANTLY I ACCEPTED, 3 DAYS AFTER I GOT THERE SOME ONE HIT MY CAR FROM BEHIND ON THE FIRST SNOW DAY OF THE SEASON.
MY COUSING GOT HIMSELF A MASTERS DEGREE IN SOCIAL SCIENCE, AND BEGAN TO TRY TO GET ME INVOLVED IN DEMOSTRATIONS AGAINST THE GOVERNMENT I HAD NO CONSEPT IN THE PRACTICAL SENSE OF WHAT COMMUNISM WAS LIKE, THAT HOW I LEARN WHAT SOCIALISM DOES TO HUMANITY, FIRST STEP INTO COMMUNISM, I HAD GONE TO VIET NAM WITH THE IDEA THAT IT WAS TO HOLD BACK COMMUNISM, AND BY THE TIME I CAME BACK HOME I BEGAN TO LEARN, THAT COMMUNISM WAS BEEN THOUGHT IN HIGH LERNNING INSITUTIONS. THEY EVEN WOULD PAY STUDENTS TO GO TO CUBA TO LEARN FIRSTHAND WHAT COMMUNISM WAS LIKE IN REAL LIFE. THOUSANDS OF PARENTS SEND THEIR KIDS TO SCHOOL TO LEARN COMMUNISM UNKNOWINGLY,
AS MY COUSING KEPT ON PUSHING ME TO LEARN HOW TO GET INVOLVED ON WHAT HE WAS DOING, GOD WAS ALREADY PROTECTING ME FROM GETTING FULLY INVOLVED IN THAT UNGODLY SYSTEM.
SO I BEGAN TO USE MY GI BILL FOR EDUCATION WHICH AT THE TIME WAS I BELIEVE $200.00 DOLLARS MONTHLY.
IT WAS ON THE 1ST DAY I ATTENDED A COMMUNITY COLLEGE IN WASHINGTON THAT A GIRL SAW ME STANDING NEXT TO AN INSIDE COLUMN MINDING MY OWN BUISNESS, WHICH I HAVE ALWAYS SPEND LOTSOF TIME OBSERVING PEOPLE, THIS YOUNG LADY CAME TO MY FACE AND ASK ME WHY I DID NOT HAVE A SMILE ON MY FACE, I ANSWER HER BACK I WAS NOT SEEING ANYTHING FUNY, SO SHE MOVED AWAY, BUT KEPT CLOSE TO WHERE I WAS STANDING, THAT QUESTION FORCE ME TO THINK WHY WOULD A WOMAN COME FROM NO WHERE TO ASK ME WHY I WAS NOT SMILING.
WHICH LED ME TO WANT TO KNOW THE REASON WHY SHE ASKED ME THAT QUESTION AND GAVE ME THE DESIRE TO FIND OUT WHO SHE WAS, LATER THAT DAY I LEARN THAT SHE WAS WORKING FOR A VETERAN’S AGENCY IN SEATTLE
THAT WAS THE AGENCY THAT HELP ME GET ENROLED ON MY GI BILL FOR SCHOOL. I MET A YOUNG MAN THAT ALSO WORK THERE AND INVITED HIM TO GO OUT AND HAVE A BEER WITH ME AND HE ACCEPTED, MY REASON WAS THAT I WANTED TO ASK HIM ABOUT THAT YOUNG LADY, AKING HIM IF HE WOULD HELP ME FOR I WAS A REAL SHY YOUNG MAN MYSELF, IF HE COULD ASK HER TO GO OUT AND HAVE A CUP OF COFFEE WITH ME, AFTER WORK AT FIRST HE SAYED NO BECAUSE SHE ALREADY HAD A BOY FRIEND, BUT AFTER A COUPLE OF MORE BEERS HE ACCEPTED, AND NEXT DAY I ASK HIM IF HE DID ASK HER AND HE SAID YES BUT SHE WANTS YOU TO ASK HER YOURSELF SO I GOT HER AT A TIME SHE WAS NOT BUSY AND ASK HER IF SHE WAS WILLING TO GO OUT AND HAVE A CUP OF COFFEE WITH ME WHEREEVER WHE WANTED TO GO. SHE SAID THAT I WOULD HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL SHE GOT OFF WORK. WE END UP AT A HOUSE OF PANCAKES NEAR BY, AND FROM THE MOMENT WE SAT DAWN TO HAVE THE COFFEE SHE BEGAN TO TALK ABOUT NOTHING ELSE BUT JESUS CHRIST AND WHAT HIS MESSAGE WAS ALL ABOUT, WELL I DO NOT COME FROM A RELIGIOUS FAMILY SO I HAD BEEN IN CHURCH WITH MY MOM A FEW TIMES BUT IT WAS ONLY TO LOOK AT THE GIRLS INSIDE THE CHURCH. NEVER DID I CAR TO HEAR WHAT THE PREACHER WAS TALKING ABOUT, SO THE MORE I WANTED TO KNOW ABOUT HER THE MORE SHE WOULD TALK ABOUT JESUS CHRIST, AND WHAT CHRIST REPRESENTED IN HER OWN LIFE, I ASK HER FOR ANOTHER DATE AND SHE ACCEPTED, AND SAMETHING HAPPEN, THAT IS THE WAY IT WENT FOR ABOUT 2 MONTHS TO THE POINT I FINALY ASK GOD IN THE PRIVACEY OF MY OWN RENTED APARTAMENT, THAT IF THERE WAS SUCH A THING AS A HOLY SPIRIT TO LET ME HAVE IT RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER EYES SO THAT SHE WOULD STOP TALKING ABOUT IT, SO ONE NIGHT IT WAS AROUND 9 PM IN HER APARTAMENT AS SHE KEPT HER RUTINE OF TALKING ABOUT JESUS CHRIST I GOT HER PISS AT ME AND TOLD ME TO BETTER GO HOME SO SHE LEAN DOWN TO GRAB MY MILITARY HEAVY JACKET FOR IT HAD A LINER, SHE WAS GIVING ME HER BACK SO I USED TWO OF MY FINGERS AND POCK HER SIDES OF HER RIBS FROM BEHIND UNDER THE BELIEVE BACK THEN THAT PEOPLE ANGRY TRULY EXPRESS THER TRUE CHARACTER, SHE TURN AROUND AND I WAS EXPECTING A SLAP ON THE FACE BUT INSTEAD SHE WAS SMILING AND ASK ME IF I WAS WILLING TO ACCEPT JESUS CHRIST AS MY LORD AND SAVIOUR AND I SURPRISE SAID SURE, SHE SAID NO NOT LIKE THAT REPEAT AFTER ME I MY NAME DO ACCEPT JESUS CHRIST AS MY LORD AND SAVIOUR OF MY LIFE.
AS SOON AS I DID THAT I BEGAN TO FEEL LIKE I WAS DRUNK AND COULD HARDLY STAY STANDING AND BEGAN TO FEEL LIKE A BALL GOING UP AND DOWN FROM MY STOMACH TO MY NECK, IN A SLOW MOTION I ASK HER WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME SHE WAS SMILING AND SAID THE LORD HAS JUST FILL YOU WITH HIS HOLY SPIRIT, I HAD TO SIT DOWN IN ORDER NOT TO FALL, AND STAY LIKE THAT FOR ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW LONG IT COULD HAVE BEEN 1/2 HOUR OF ONE HOUR, SHE SAID YOU BETTER GO HOME AND TALK TO GOD THANKING HIM, FOR HIS GIFT, SO I STUD UP AND BEGAN TO WALK OUT OF HER APARTAMENT, STUBLING ON THE HALLWAY, DOWN THE ELEVATOR, UNTO MY CAR OUTSIDE, I SAT IN MY CAR FOR A WHILE AND KEPT ON SAYING TO MYSELF THIS WOMAN HAS BEEN TALKING TO ME FOR SO LONG ABOUT RELIGION THAT SHE REALY PSYCHY OUT, SO I TURN ON MY CAR AND BEGAN TO DRIVE HOME WHICH WAS ABOUT 15 MILES FROM HER APARTAMENT, THE FREEWAY AT THAT TIME OF NIGHT WAS NOT BUSY SO I WOULD LOOK AT MY SPEEDOMETER AND SEE THAT I WAS DRIVING AROUND 30 MILES PER HOUR ON THE FREEWAY BUT FELT THAT I WAS GOING FASTER, UNTIL I GOT HOME GO INTO THE APARTAMENT AND SAT DAWN ON THE BED AND THE BALL KEPT GOING UP AND DOWN INSIDE OF ME, SO I SAID LORD IF THIS IS YOU I WANT YOU TO NOT STOP DOING WHAT YOU ARE DOING UNTIL YOU KNOW THAT I UNDERSTAND WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME.
SO I LAY DOWN AND FELL ASLEEP NEXT MORNING I WOKE UP AND LOOKING AT THE CEILING MY BEDROOM I FELT REAL FRESH RELAXED AND MY MIND BEGAN TO ANALISE THE LAST NIGHT EXPERIENCE, SO I THOUGHT WOW I TRULY GOT ALL PSYCOUT BY THIS WOMAN LAST NIGHT SO I SAT DOWN AND AS SOON AS I PUT MY FEET ON THE FLOOR THE BALL BEGAN TO GO UP AND DOWN AND BEGAN AGAIN TO FEEL DRUNK, I STUMBLE TO THE BATHROOM AND SHOWER AND AS BEST AS I COULD GOT READY TO GO TO SCHOOL WHEN I GOT OFF MY CAR AND BEGAN TO WALK TO SCHOOL SOME OF THE OTHER VETRERANS BEGAN TO NOTICE MY WOUBLY WALK AS IF I WAS DRUNK AND THEY ASK ME IF I HAD BEEN USING POT BEFORE I CAME TO THE SCHOOL OR HAD ANY THING TO DRINK I SAID NO THIS IS BEEN GOING ON SINCE LAST NIGHT AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON, THIS YOUNG WOMAN WAS ALREADY INSIDE THE SCHOOL AND SAW ME COMMING AND ASK ME HOW I FELT I TOLD HER THAT I FELT THE SAME WAY I FELT LAST NIGHT SHE SAID GOD IS DEALING WITH YOU AND HE WILL NOT GIVE UP UNTIL YOU GIVE UP.
IT TOOK ABOUT A MONTH OF EXPERIENCE, I COULD GO TO A RESTAURANT WITH HER AND LOOKING AT PEOPLE SITTING CLOSE TO WHERE WE WERE I COULD SEE LIKE FROGS WERE COMMING OUT OF THEIR MOUTHS AND WOULD TELL HER WHAT I WAS SEEING AND SHE WOULD GO AND TELL THE PEOPLE WHAT I HAD SAID AND THEY WOULD TELL HER THAT OTHER PEOPLE HAD ALREADY TOLD THEM THAT SAME THING.
FINALY ONE DAY I SAID OK LORD PLEASE STOP THIS BUISNESS OF ME FEELING THIS BALL GOING UP AND DOWN AND FEELING LIKE I AM DRUNK
AND GOD DID STOP THAT FROM HAPPENING, BY THEN GOD GAVE ME 3 VISIONS TWO OF THOSE VISIONS ALREADY WENT TO PAST, A VISION IS WHEN GOD LETS YOU SEE THE FUTURE AHEAD OF TIME DAYS AND SOMETIMES MONTHS IN THIS CASE THE FIRST ONE WAS ABOUT THIS GIRL THAT I SAW HER JUST BEFORE I WOKE UP SO HER CLEAR AS IF IT WAS HAPPENING RIGHT THERE AND THEN, IN WICH I SAW HER BEEN SEEK IN BED AND I WAS TAKING CARE OF HER, SO I WENT AND TOLD HER AND SHE LOL AND SAID THAT WAS NOT GOD THAT WAS SATAN I FEEL GREAT AND HARDLY EVER GET SEEK SHE TOO WAS 27 YEARS OLD ONLY 2 OR 3 MONTHS YOUNGER THAN ME.
ABOUT A WEEK LATER IT WAS A HOLYDAY IT WAS THE DAY WHERE CHURCHES TAKE THEIR CONGREGATION TO A PARK AND SHARE POT LOCK AS A WAY OF CELEBRATING THE DAY, IT WAS A CLEAR BEUTIFUL DAY SO I BEGAN TO WORK ON MY CAR BRAKES, REPLACING THEM, WHILE THE REST OF THE PEOPLE WERE PLAYING GAMES ETC. EXCANGING EXPERIENCES.
BY THE TIME I WAS DONE WITH MY CAR I NOTICE THAT CLOUDS BEGAN TO MOVE IN AND THE WIND BEGAN TO INCREASE, SEATTLE RAINS A LOT NOT WITH HEAVY RAIN BUT LIGHT RAIN MOST OF THE TIME, SO THE PEOPLE BEGAN TO COLLECT ALL THEIR STUFF AND PUT THEM AWAY IN THEIR CARS SHE WAS HELPING THEM SO BY THE TIME SHE FINISH SHE WAS ALL WET AND GOT IN MY CAR AND BEGAN TO DRIVE HER HOME, ALONG THE WAY MY CAR WAS RUNNING JUST FINE THEN ALL OF A SUDEN IT QUIT SO I HAD TO PUL TO THE SIDE OF THE ROAD TO SEE WHAT WAS WRONG WITH IT AND I COULD NOT FIND ANY THING WRONG WITH IT, SHE BEGAN TO COMPLAIN TO ME ABOUT TAKEING TOO MUCH TIME TO FIND OUT WHAT WAS WRONGWITH THE CAR, AND BEGAN TO TELL ME THAT I HAD DONE SOMETHING WRONG TO THE CAR IN ORDER TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH HER,I TOLD HER THAT WAS NOT TRUE, I NOTICE THAT THERE WAS A GAS STATION ABOUT A BLOCK FROM WHERE MY CAR BROKE DOWN, SO I ASK HER TO GET BEHIND THE WHEEL AND I WAS GOING TO PUSH THE CAR TO THE STATION TO SEE IF THEY HAD A MECHANIC TO HELP US OUT, SHE DID SO AND WE GOT TO THE STATION AND ASK THE MAN IF THEY HAD A MECHANIC AND HE SAID YES BUT HE HAS GONE HOME AND WON’T BE BACK UNTIL MORNINIG, SO I ASK HIM IF I COULD LEAVE MY CAR THERE AND HAVE HIM CHECK IT OUT, HE SAID SURE I WILL LET THE MECHANIC KNOW IN THE MORNING AND ASK IF THERE WAS A PHONE HE SAID SURE I CALLED A TAXI AND HAD US TAKE TO HER APARTAMENT WHICH WAS IN DOWN TOWN SEATTLE, ON OUR WAY THERE SHE BEGAN TO ASK ME TO STAY WITH HER IN THE APARTAENT BECAUSE SHE FELT REAL BAD AND SHE HAD NO FAMILY IN SEATTLE SHE WAS FROM WISCONSIN, I SAID I COULD NOT DO THAT I DID NOT WANT HER NEIGHBORS TO GET THE WRONG IMPRESSION OF HER BY SEEN ME LEAVING THE APARTAMENT IN THE MORNING, SO DOE I DID NOT WANT TO STAY THERE SHE FINALY CONVINCE ME AND I DID SO AS BEST AS I COULD UNER THE CIRCUMSTANCES I PEPARED A TEA AND PUT SOME VICKS ON THE SOLES OF HER FEET AND SMAL PART OF HER BACK GAVE HER AT THE TIME ASPIRIN AND TOLD HER I WAS GOING TO SLEEP ON THE COUCH, SHE WANTED ME TO WAKE HER UP EARLY IN THE MORNING TO GO TO A CHURCH THAT WAS ABOUT 3 BLOCKS FROM WHERE HER APARTAMENT WAS AT I TOLD HER THAT I COULD NOT DO THAT BECAUSE SHE WAS GOING TO PERSPIRE THAT NIGHT WITH THE VICKS I PUT ON HER AND THAT IT WAS COLD OUTSIDE SHE WOULD GET IN WORST SHAPE THAN THAT NIGHT.
HER ATTITUDE WAS OF THAT OF A LIBERATED WOMAN WHO IN HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO TELL ME WHAT I CAN DO OR NOT, SO I SAID OK IF YOU WANT TO DO THAT, I WILL WAKE YOU UP IN THE MORNING SO I DID AND AT 7 AM WE WERE WALKING TO THE CHURCH TO STAND OUTSIDE NO CHURCH OPENS AT 7 AM
SHE KEPT ON ARGUING WITH ME THAT MORNING SO I WALKED HER HOME AND TOLD HER I HAD TO GO TO THE GARAGE A CHECK ON MY CAR, I CALLED A TAXI AND LEFT HER IT WAS THEN THAT GOD SHOW ME THAT WAS THE WOMAN THAT I HAD ASK HER TO INTRODUCE ME TO HIM, SHE HAD ALL THAT I HAD ASKED OF GOD IN A PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION FROM THE COLOR OF HER EYES WHICH WERE A REAL CLEAR BRIGHT GREEN COLOR, COLOR OF HAIR, BODY SHAPE ETC, BUT HER TALENTS WERE NOT THERE NOR HER CHARACTER.
I KEPT ON SEEN HER FOR A TIME AND THINGS GOT WORST SO ONE MORNING SHE ASK ME TO GO TO HER APARTAMENT TO HELP HER WITH PROBLEMS SHE HAD WITH THE CAR SHE WAS DRIVING, SO I WENT OVER AND WHEN I GOT THERE SHE WOULD NOT OPEN THE DOOR SO I TOLD HER WHY DID YOU CALL ME TO COME AND HELP YOU WITH THE CAR AND NOW THAT I AM HERE YOU ARE REJECTING ME MEAN TIME SHE CALL THE POLICE THE POLICE OFFICER CAME AND ASK ME TO LEAVE THE APARTAMENT I ASK THEM IF THEY WERE GOING TO TAKE ME TO JAIL, IS SAID THE REASON WHY I AM HERE IS THAT SHE CALL ME AT HOME TO COME HELP HER WITH THE CAR AND WHEN I CAME SHE WOULD NOT COME OUT AND TALK TO ME THEY SAID NO WE ARE NOT GOING TO TAKE YOU TO JAIL SHE JUST WANT YOU TO LEAVE AND I SAID NO PROBLEM SO I LEFT THE APARTAMENT AND NEVER AGAIN WENT BACK, NEEDLESS TO SAY THE VISION HAD ALEADY TAKEN PLACE AND GOD HAD SHOW ME OF HIS EXCISTENCE SO I NEVER WENT BACK TO HER APARTAMENT I BEGAN TO GO TO A DIFERENT CHURCH THAT SHE WAS NOT GOING TO, ABOUT A COUPLE OF YEARS LATTER SHE CAME TO THE CHURCH I ATTENDED AND SHE CAME TO ME HUGE ME, I HUGH HER BACK AS A WAY OF LETTING HER KNOW THAT THERE WAS NO ANIMOSSITY THOWARDS HER, SHE CAME BACK A COUPLE OF OTHER TIMES BUT I NEVER WENT BACK TO HER.
LYOU DO NOT BITE THE HAND OF THOSE THAT ARE TRYING TO HELP YOU, IS MY MOTTO.
3 YEARS LATER I MET BY INVITATION OF A FRIEND AT WORK THE GIRL THAT HAD ALL THE CHARACTER OF THE WOMAN I HAD ASK GOD FOR, THE FIRST ONE HAD THE PHYSICAL THE SECOND ONE HAD THE TALENTS AND THE CHARACTER I WANTED IN A WOMAN.
A WOMAN WITH A QUITE SPIRIT, THAT KNEW HOW TO PLAY THE HARP, A VERY UNCOMON MUSICAL INSTRUMENT, THAT SHE LOVED CHILDREN ENOUGH TO BE WILLING TO BE A MIDWIFE, THAT SHE LIKE ORIENTAL FOOD, AND KNEW HOW TO BELLY DANCING, LOT, THOSE WERE SOME OF THE DESIGNS I ASKED GOD FOR QUITE A BIT COMPLICATED AS YOU CAN ALL SEE, BUT NOTHING IMPOSIBLE FOR GOD TO CREATE,THAT IS WHAT GOD WAS DOING FOR THOSE 7 YEARS I KEPT ON ASKING HIM HOW LONG IT WAS GOING TO TAKE FOR HIM TO SHOW ME OF HIS POWER AND EXISITENCE.
BUT I FORGOT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING OF MY REQUEST AND THAT WAS THAT I FORGOT TO ASK GOD TO TEACH THAT WOMAN TO LOVE ME, YES GOD FULFILL THE DESIRES OF MY HEART BUT FORGOT TO PUT LOVE IN EITHER ONE OF THOSE TWO WOMENLOVE FOR ME I DID LOVE THEM BOTH BECAUSE I KNEW THEM BEFORE I MET THEM, BUT LOVE HAS TO BE A TWO WAY STREET REASON WHY THAT WAS BACK IN THE MID 70’S THE NEW AGE GARBAGE WAS ALREADY GOING STRONG, REASON WHY I HATE THE NEW AGE GARBAGE RELIGION BECAUSE THEY HAVE NO CLUE AS TO WHO GOD IS NOR WHAT HE REPRESENTS TO HUMANITY, THERE IS NOTHING IMPOSIBLE FOR HIM I SEEN THAT THROUGH OUT MY LIFE ON EVERY REQUEST I HAVE ASK HIM, I AM NO PERFECT MAN AS A MATTER OF FACT MANY TIMES I HAVE BEEN ANGRYWITH GOD AND HE KNOWS BETTER THAN ANYBODY HOW I AM GOING TO RESPOND UNDER CERTAIN PRSSURE HE PUTS IN MY LIFE TO BUILD MY CHARACTER AND HE ALSO KNOWS THAT I HAVE NEVER BEEN A HYPOCRITY I CLEAR MY MIND WHEN THERE ARE ISSUS THAT I DO NOT BELIEVE NOR AM I WILLING TO COMPROMISE, GOD KNOWS THAT I DID ASK HIM WHEN I FIRST MET HIM THAT I WOULD MOVE ANY PLACE HE WANTED ME TO MOVE AT ANY TIME HE WANTED ME TO MOVE AT FIRST I WANTED HIM TO TEACH ME ACORDING TO MY LEVEL OF UNDERSTANDING FOR WE ALL HAVE DIFERENT LEVELS JUST LIKE KIDS IN SCHOOL SOME ARE QUICKER TO PICK UP ON WHAT THE TEACHER IS TEACHING OTHERS HAVE TO ASK QHESTIONS, AND YET THERE ARE OTHERS THAT WON’T GIVE A CRAP AT ALL OF WHAT THE TEACHER IS TEACHING THEY ARE THERE ONLY BECAUSE THEIR PARENTS DO NOT WANT THEM AT HOME.
THAT IS THE REASON WHY I CAN NOT BE INDOCRINATED BY FALSE RELIGIONS NOR ANY BODY NO DAMN JEW HAS BEEN ABLE TO INDOCRINATE ME THROUGH OUT MY LIFE, BECAUSE I HAVE A GOD THAT PROTECTS ME AND EVEN WHEN I SCREW UP I KNOW GOD KNEW I WAS GOING TOSCREW UP AND MAKES UP THE DIFERENCE ON MY MISTAKES REASON WHY I TRULY CAN NOT SAY WHAT IS RIGHT OR WRONG I JUST GO AND DO WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE AT THE SPIRT OF THE MOMENT. TRSTING THAT IF IT WAS DONE RIGHT IT WILL SERVE FOR GOD’S GLORY AND IF IT WAS DONE WRONG THAT GOD CAN STILL USE IT FOR WHATEVER HE KNOW NEEDED TOBE DONE A TOOL CAN ONLY BE USED ACORDING TO THE ONE THAT HOLDS AND OWNS THE TOOL THE TOOL DOES NOT HAVE THE POWER TO DO AS IT PLEASSESS.
SOME TOOLS ARE GOOD TO BUILD AS WELL AS TO DESTROY THINGS, OTHERS ARE GOOD TO ONLY BUILD, WHILE OTHERS ARE ONLY GOOD TO DESTROY THINGS.
BUT ALL TOOLS ARE GOOD IN GOD’S HANDS.
THIS IS ONLY A VERY SHORT TESTIMONY OF GOD’S WORK IN MY LIFE I AM 78 YEARS OLD AND I KNOWN MY LORD AND SAVIOUR SINCE I WAS 27 YEARS OLD, I I KNEW HOW TO SPELL I COULD WRITE SEVERAL BOOKS OF WHAT GOD HAS DONE IN MY LIFE TO HELP ME BE WHAT I AM TODAY, HAVE RECIVED GOD’S BLESSINGS AND I HAVE ALSO BEEN WILLING TO LET EVERYTHING HE HAS GIVEN ME DESAPEAR FROM MY LIFE AS WELL I HAVE ALSO HAD TO LEARN HOW TO LIVE LIKE A HERMIT WITH OUT EVEN BEEN ABLE TO SHOWER FOR MONTHS AT THE TIME DO TO WEATHER CONDITIONS AND MY AGE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I WOULD TAKE COLD SHOWERS ON TEMPERURES IN THE 40’S AND 50’S OUT SIDE WITH WATER HOSE BACK IN SEATTLE WHEN I LOST MY HOUSE AND HAD TO LIVE IN Y SAIL BOAT FOR A FEW YEARS.
AND EVEN UP TO A COUPLE OF YEARS AGO I COULD STILL VENTURE TO BE OUTSIDE FEEDING MY DOGS, EVEN WHILE HURRICANES WERE ABOUT 50 MILES AWAY FROM WHERE I LIVED NOT EVEN THINKING THERE WAS A HURRICANE GOING TRUE AT THE TIME FEEDING MY DOGS LATE AT NIGHT AND GOD HAS ALWAYS TAKEN GOOD CARE OF ME BUT NOW I AM NOT WILLING TO TEMPT HIM BY DOING STUPID THINGS LIKE THAT AT MY AGE, I HAVE ALREADY FALLEN OFF MY PORCH ABOUT 2 1/2 FEET FROM THE GROUND LANDING ON MY BACK AND BOUNCING MY HEAD ON THE DIRT DOE TO LOCK OF BODY BALANCE.
BUT I CONTINUE MOVING FORWARD, NO MATTER WHAT SATAN THROWS AT ME.
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Thank you, CRAPGIVER! I KNOW your heart/mind, and respect your internal passion! ALL of us are finding our way…! Love you so on this journey…! 🌹😊💕
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It’s funny how we perceive ‘NEED’….do we really need someone else or to have sex with someone else in love and passion? NOPE, we don’t NEED it, it’s a carnal desire, but I do understand what she is saying about a soul connection, in that the person is like what they call twin flames….a soul connection and sexual connection that transends the physical…and the power of that connection but is not needed when you are in the big picture of things…as in the matrix and ‘needs’. When you realize we don’t NEED anything from anyone, and the whole male/female sexual romantic realtionship is not real, it’s a program that we have been installed into us from birth in this matrix and is not about a marriage or even being in control of each other in any way because of a piece of paper saying you are married and you got the dogma of religion and relationships in the matrix to say you are good or bad because you had sex outside of a marriage or other programs/rules telling us how to be in a relationship on a social construct pitting us against each other instead of a deep intimacy that this lady speaks about that is rare among humans to a REAL intimate partnership of a soul.
The marriage in this matrix is just a merger of two financial strawmen and why they have you file a license and why you have to get a divorce in a court. This is how religion has programmed us into thinking a woman is a slut if she has sex outside a marriage and the man is just a player who supposedly carries no guilt of having sex outside a marriage in the patriarchal control of humanity. Sexual energy is a creative force…and the merger of the feminine and masculine energies. Why does anyone think why there’s pedos out there doing what they do with children?
True love, is unconditional love…..like she was talking about the sort of relationship that she could ‘trust’ and not in control of each other but a soul connection and deep intimacy….which isn’t governed by either a state or a ‘God’ as in each part of source within each of us and the power it has in union with each other. I thought this was a beautiful article.
But the ‘need’ is not a soul thing, that is the matrix program….
FEED THE NEED program ( a carnal desire matrix program)….we have no needs, it’s all within us.
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Ewww…but perhaps carnal needs can lead to a deeper understanding for the real beauty/power of orgasmic relations! Touching the face of God/Source/All That Is!! Whoop-whoop!! 😊🌹😊💓❤️🎉👏
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